I'm Derf,
I'm a moody bitch living mostly in my own head.
Sometimes i smile.
Sometimes i don't.
Life is perplexing; so many things going on at the same time---what's important?
Fast food "mexican" makes me want to sell a buick

I live for the music of Jimi Hendrix. It is the only music I hear as phrases, not individual notes.

I should get a job.

 

I've been to Moes. Its yummy...or it was when I went last 9yrs ago. Haha

Derf is Derf...he's his own kinda special. Haha

My son is almost 5 and my daughter is 5.5 months. I was with my sons father for 7yrs and said **** it and left...tired of his bull****...been with my daughter's dad for a little over a year...he's my country boy...we got pregnant after being together a month...lol...oops...but she was the best whoops ever and I'm so glad we have her. I've never been with a younger guy. Lol

Fastest car I've driven was my 95 Pontiac fireside formula.

 

I've only ever been with my wife(while we're on the subject), she's my first, and only... I do get curious from time to time, but I always terminate the thoughts there(code of beliefs I was not raised with)... My son was a happy accident as well, right after high school... I wasn't 18 yet when we were expecting... I tried college, but it didn't work out...

I had a 91 Firebird when I was 14 or so, but it was never truly roadworthy, and I never legally drove it...

 

That's good you get rid of those thoughts...it can be hard...I'm so glad I'm not with the person I lost it with he sucked Lmao.

 

My first at the time was the most amazing person. As we grew up, I realized hoe lazy and worthless she really was. And found out that she was "forgetting" to take her birth control.
it ended when she "thought" I cheated on her, so returned the favor.....dude knocked her up. Feel bad for the kid, but not for her. She has quite a few mental issues.

 

I hate gals like that. Makes us good ones look bad. Blah..

 

I had an ex like that... She was more*cough, experienced, cough* than me at the time, and left me for not giving it up... I found out later that she cheated on me with another girl, who then cheated on her... Keep in mind I was 15, she 16... Now, I'm not sure where she ended up, but she deserved the heartache I heard about her going through shortly after me...

... And remembering my exes sparks the curiosity again... Not longing or wanting, just simple curiosity...

 

I may not of been the best boyfriend, but I never once cheated. Never even thought about it.
Did I look at other girls? Yea, all guys do. But I always ended up with the type of chicks that didn't care and looked also. Hell, half the time my girl would ask me if I saw that chicks butt because it was nice. Lmao
I had a chick break up with me because I wouldn't give it to her. Sorry, its not fun if youre making it easy for me.


It is all a learning experience.
I'll be honest with you guys.
I don't believe in marriage. And as it stands right now, I have no reason to be dating. Especially that I don't want kids.
I feel like I should have my life together before doing anything else. Plus I spend to much money on my cars to afford a significant other. lmao
Having the cars though, keeps me out of trouble. So it really isn't a bad thing being young and single.

 

I don't think about cheating, just wondering if it's all the same with different people...literally the whole thought...
Yeah, it's difficult to afford both, but the car projects keep me sane... Literally, cars are about 75-80% of my every waking thought...

 

No it is not all the same!!! Lol